Death of a Dear Friend

Some 2 months ago, i got this sms " Waleed ur Friend Died"

Waleed and I were very close friend. We go a long way back since high school. we've developed our friendship over the years
and realized one thing as we grew older together and that is we Trust Each Others unconditionally.
now Waleed is gone.
i can't say that my existance depended on his. all i can say is that i miss him and for the very 1st time in my whole pathetic life i feel this strange feeling of losing someone.
shit, there is nothing anyone can do to bring a soul from the dead.
C'est la vie huh? to get attached to life then to give it up.
i know i should be grateful to be alive, but i wasn't asked to be born in the 1st place.
i hate life. and i hate death.
and i hate all those rules and norms that we got used to and no one questions anymore.. i am a beleiver but i feel sometimes tide down by all those ideas that we inheret regardless we chose them or not.

bye bye waleed, u will be missed and u know it.
i wish you are in heaven cause i know how many bad things we've done together..
see ya