"O God of Earth and Altar, Bow down and hear our cry,
Our earthly rulers falter, Our people drift and die,
The walls of gold entomb us, The swords of scorn divide,
Take not thy thunder from us,Take away our pride"



G.K. Chesterton: English Hymnal

A place in the Sun

ok i am off Brown Sugar for the past 15 days or so ..

there is this big void inside of me ..

i am trying to fill this void by spending time with those who matter most to me . yet i feel this emptiness .. it is not the 1st time i quit .. it is like the 4th in 10 years or little less.

the 1st two days were hell for me, i was drained from all toxics in my body and i was really hurting all the time ..

now the problem is rather mental .. i feel depressed ..

i wish i can do something about it ..soon

Death of a Dear Friend

Some 2 months ago, i got this sms " Waleed ur Friend Died"

Waleed and I were very close friend. We go a long way back since high school. we've developed our friendship over the years
and realized one thing as we grew older together and that is we Trust Each Others unconditionally.
now Waleed is gone.
i can't say that my existance depended on his. all i can say is that i miss him and for the very 1st time in my whole pathetic life i feel this strange feeling of losing someone.
shit, there is nothing anyone can do to bring a soul from the dead.
C'est la vie huh? to get attached to life then to give it up.
i know i should be grateful to be alive, but i wasn't asked to be born in the 1st place.
i hate life. and i hate death.
and i hate all those rules and norms that we got used to and no one questions anymore.. i am a beleiver but i feel sometimes tide down by all those ideas that we inheret regardless we chose them or not.

bye bye waleed, u will be missed and u know it.
i wish you are in heaven cause i know how many bad things we've done together..
see ya

Crossing the lines…again & again

What am I looking for?
A question, that keeps spinning round and round in my head, during the day but mostly @ night.
Sometimes i take time thinking of that. Why do I always feel that no matter what, there is one more mountain left to Climb.

Lately, I feel sexually frustrated though I’m having alot of sex. I am married, but I feel like I want to flirt all the time.

Take yesterday; I receive an invitation for a night out with some hot chicks who promised anal. Can you believe it?

But then again, I feel I am dragging my feet.
I feel like not wanting to do this, but another part of me keeps telling me to go.

Strange huh? Or perhaps plain stupidity.

Echoes of Territorial Pissings: To those who die for love ... i dedicate this poem

Echoes of Territorial Pissings: To the departed... i dedicate this poem

Facts about guys and gals

Gal Facts:
When she wants a hug she will just stand there.
When you break a girl’s heart, she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later.
When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind. When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers, "I'm fine, " after a few seconds, she is not fine at all. When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful. When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says, "I miss you, " no one in this world can miss you more than that.
When a girl is mean to you after a breakup she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever.

Guy Facts:
When a guy calls you, he wants to be with you.
When a guy is quiet, He's listening to you.
When a guy is not arguing, he realizes he's wrong.
When a guy says, "I'm fine," after a few minutes, he means it.
When a guy stares at you, he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do.
When you're laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world.
When a guy calls you everyday, he is in love.
When a good guy tells you he loves you, he means it.
When a guy says he can't live without you, he's with you till you're done. When a guy says, "I miss you, " he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else.

If only we remembered these little things, a lot of heartache could be avoided.

Been bossed Around? What a shocker?!

Have you ever been bossed around?
If you are a woman, then probably you have. Women always tend to think so.
But my focus is not on women for the moment.
I am thinking of men and how they boss themselves around.
True, every man has this thing bet. his legs. A penis and a couple of nuts ‘some actually have one’.
Once you’ve become a full man, your hormones go crazy.
You have constant erection for the 1st 3 years or so.. then you learn how to have control over them ‘ still the control is limited’ .. so you grow up realizing that the once thought strong man is bossed around by a penis
What a shocker?
Through out your life you are obeying the demands of your master; your penis..
Any day is a good day. You rise up, dress up, go out to find all those beautiful ladies … and u can’t help wondering how good it feels like to mount a lady or two in the morning.
But then in the evening when the work’s day is done, you feel sort of sad. Sad cause you were bossed around.
And women, they usually have no clue about what it feels like being a man.
They tend to think that men are like animals with no reason but cause men show interest in women.
I admit some men are disgusting freaks but so are some women too. Hello we are only human beings .. take a look around .. if u are gonna stand there pointing the finger @ men then u should do the same to women too
Think about it ..