Death of a Dear Friend

Some 2 months ago, i got this sms " Waleed ur Friend Died"

Waleed and I were very close friend. We go a long way back since high school. we've developed our friendship over the years
and realized one thing as we grew older together and that is we Trust Each Others unconditionally.
now Waleed is gone.
i can't say that my existance depended on his. all i can say is that i miss him and for the very 1st time in my whole pathetic life i feel this strange feeling of losing someone.
shit, there is nothing anyone can do to bring a soul from the dead.
C'est la vie huh? to get attached to life then to give it up.
i know i should be grateful to be alive, but i wasn't asked to be born in the 1st place.
i hate life. and i hate death.
and i hate all those rules and norms that we got used to and no one questions anymore.. i am a beleiver but i feel sometimes tide down by all those ideas that we inheret regardless we chose them or not.

bye bye waleed, u will be missed and u know it.
i wish you are in heaven cause i know how many bad things we've done together..
see ya

Crossing the lines…again & again

What am I looking for?
A question, that keeps spinning round and round in my head, during the day but mostly @ night.
Sometimes i take time thinking of that. Why do I always feel that no matter what, there is one more mountain left to Climb.

Lately, I feel sexually frustrated though I’m having alot of sex. I am married, but I feel like I want to flirt all the time.

Take yesterday; I receive an invitation for a night out with some hot chicks who promised anal. Can you believe it?

But then again, I feel I am dragging my feet.
I feel like not wanting to do this, but another part of me keeps telling me to go.

Strange huh? Or perhaps plain stupidity.

Echoes of Territorial Pissings: To those who die for love ... i dedicate this poem

Echoes of Territorial Pissings: To the departed... i dedicate this poem

Facts about guys and gals

Gal Facts:
When she wants a hug she will just stand there.
When you break a girl’s heart, she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later.
When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind. When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers, "I'm fine, " after a few seconds, she is not fine at all. When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful. When a girl lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says, "I miss you, " no one in this world can miss you more than that.
When a girl is mean to you after a breakup she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever.

Guy Facts:
When a guy calls you, he wants to be with you.
When a guy is quiet, He's listening to you.
When a guy is not arguing, he realizes he's wrong.
When a guy says, "I'm fine," after a few minutes, he means it.
When a guy stares at you, he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do.
When you're laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world.
When a guy calls you everyday, he is in love.
When a good guy tells you he loves you, he means it.
When a guy says he can't live without you, he's with you till you're done. When a guy says, "I miss you, " he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else.

If only we remembered these little things, a lot of heartache could be avoided.

Been bossed Around? What a shocker?!

Have you ever been bossed around?
If you are a woman, then probably you have. Women always tend to think so.
But my focus is not on women for the moment.
I am thinking of men and how they boss themselves around.
True, every man has this thing bet. his legs. A penis and a couple of nuts ‘some actually have one’.
Once you’ve become a full man, your hormones go crazy.
You have constant erection for the 1st 3 years or so.. then you learn how to have control over them ‘ still the control is limited’ .. so you grow up realizing that the once thought strong man is bossed around by a penis
What a shocker?
Through out your life you are obeying the demands of your master; your penis..
Any day is a good day. You rise up, dress up, go out to find all those beautiful ladies … and u can’t help wondering how good it feels like to mount a lady or two in the morning.
But then in the evening when the work’s day is done, you feel sort of sad. Sad cause you were bossed around.
And women, they usually have no clue about what it feels like being a man.
They tend to think that men are like animals with no reason but cause men show interest in women.
I admit some men are disgusting freaks but so are some women too. Hello we are only human beings .. take a look around .. if u are gonna stand there pointing the finger @ men then u should do the same to women too
Think about it ..

Facing Death for the 2nd time in less than 5 years ..

I almost died couple of days ago.
I was driving so fast on the Nile road, and I didn’t pay attention for a split of a second. It almost cost me my life. I was lucky to survive.
I didn’t reflect much on the incident, I was pissed of.
Now that a few days have passed and I think of it. I realize I was given a second chance, perhaps a third .. I stopped counting.
Any how, regardless of this incident I find myself not myself lately. I feel indifferent and reckless in many ways. I hope I do something about it soon before it is too late.

Fearless - Pink Floyd

You say the hill's too steep to climb,Climb it!

You say you'd like to see me try,Climb it!

You pick the place and I'll choose the time

And I'll climb the hill in my own way

just wait a while for the right day

And as I rise above the treeline and the clouds

I look down hear the sound of the things you said today

Fearlessly the idiot faced the crowd, smiling

Merciless, the magistrate turns 'round, frowning

and who's the fool who wears the crown

No doubt in your own way

And everyday is the right day

And as you rise above the fearlines in his brow

You look down

Hear the sound of the faces in the crowd

A "Need for Speed "

Couple of days ago i was driving like crazy.
It was almost 9 pm. i was taking salah salem road...when i suddenly got pissed off .. a taxi driving blocke the whole traffic just before the Orouba tunnel..
before i know it .. i found myself ...passing the car infront of me ... the one ahead of it...the next one...and voila...
there i was ...speeding up ... 100 ... 120 ...140... oh oh..
suddenly i reached the Thawra crossing..cars are coming from the right...
and i don't have any intention to pull the brakes..
so i didn't...
i even gained more speed... and ...i just kept on going..
later that night... i asked myself why...? do i have a death wish?
i couldn't answer cause i didn't know ..
all i know is.. that sometimes .. i snap
i feel like i want to run.. or drive fast... really fast..
and since i really can't run; heavy smokers and over weight ppl don't run..

i drive.. i get my kicks out of speeding...

i don't drive recklessly though.. i just take it to the limit one more time..
each time..is just another one more time..


i just hope i don't kill anyone...

The Definition of Cool

Cool is an over used word.
If someone invites you out, you say “cool”.
If you introduce someone to another, you say “he is cool”.
so.. like the rest I use cool.. but while I use it ..there is this image in my mind of cool people..
like Steve McQueen for example, he is the undying definition of cool.
Like Donna in “that 70s show” she is very cool.
And also “Hyde” of the same episodes..

I like those guys, I don’t assume they have figured everything out…all I am saying is that it is nice to see cool people…even if they are on the screen… or on the far end of this planet
It reminds me of how LIFE used to be ….Cool

To those who die for love ... i dedicate this poem

And Death Shall Have No Dominion

And death shall have no dominion.
Dead mean naked they shall be one
With the man in the wind and the west moon;
When their bones are picked clean and the clean bones gone,
They shall have stars at elbow and foot;
Though they go mad they shall be sane,
Though they sink through the sea they shall rise again;
Though lovers be lost love shall not;
And death shall have no dominion.

And death shall have no dominion.
Under the windings of the sea
They lying long shall not die windily;
Twisting on racks when sinews give way,
Strapped to a wheel, yet they shall not break;
Faith in their hands shall snap in two,
And the unicorn evils run them through;
Split all ends up they shan't crack;
And death shall have no dominion.

And death shall have no dominion.
No more may gulls cry at their ears
Or waves break loud on the seashores;
Where blew a flower may a flower no more
Lift its head to the blows of the rain;
Through they be mad and dead as nails,
Heads of the characters hammer through daisies;
Break in the sun till the sun breaks down,
And death shall have no dominion.

Dylan Thomas

What if there is no tomorrow ?

There is this movie that i like to watch whenever i have the chance - though i didn't for a couple of yrs now ...but i used to watch it over & over again.. it is called the " Ground Hog Day" .. There is this guy in the movie ..who asks this question " what if there is No tomorrow Rhetorically.. then he answers back " That means there will be No consequences. How nice..?
i like that.... that would be great.. i can do whatever i want without worries..ain't that something?

Epitaph

Why I am making this blog.
I have no FXXXXXX clue.
I don’t want to share anything with you guys.. my stories though away from boring are too personal for me to share…
All I can share @ present is that I am 35 yrs old male..

I like music, women, hard core drugs, equally.
I like to flirt and to pray “ don’t ask how or why”
I like to ride .. women.. cars...bikes...anything and I like to star at the skies..
I am full of contradictions… and I that is why sometimes "if not most of the time" I utter incoherent bullshit..

Toilet Duck

Excuse my French; I am saying this to whoever feels uncomfortable reading my blog, although I didn’t ask anyone to read it.

Every time I go for a piss @ my own house I stare @ a toilet duck. And for those who don’t know what a toilet duck is: it is the toilets duck that u use to clean a toilet seat or something in the toilet room.
So I keep staring @ it while I piss “standing of course” u know men… they like to aim.

And every time I forget to do something about it; I hate the duck and I wish I could stick a poster where the duck is.. Sounds artificial and shallow ..well I admit it is to some ppl and to some extent .. but then ….who cares…