Facing Death for the 2nd time in less than 5 years ..

I almost died couple of days ago.
I was driving so fast on the Nile road, and I didn’t pay attention for a split of a second. It almost cost me my life. I was lucky to survive.
I didn’t reflect much on the incident, I was pissed of.
Now that a few days have passed and I think of it. I realize I was given a second chance, perhaps a third .. I stopped counting.
Any how, regardless of this incident I find myself not myself lately. I feel indifferent and reckless in many ways. I hope I do something about it soon before it is too late.